Even If You Are Making It All Up!

Yes, well, you do realize that you can't "change the world." I mean, the world changes on it's own, it's always changing, and you change along with it, I mean, you are changing every minute, and you can't control it, or stop it.  I think we like photographs, or we don't like photographs because they freeze a moment.  They are a false thing.  A true thing too. Or maybe, I mean, a truly false thing.

The best times are when you are in the flow of life, and you see and experience and you don't try to hold or cling to anything.  These times are rare, or maybe not so rare, but you can't will them into being, they just come, or they don't.  And you can love those moments, but you don't get to keep them or hold them.  They pass through you, or you pass through them.

So it's best when you are not holding or clinging.  But it's hard.  You sometimes love the world, and the things in it, and you sometimes love yourself too, and you want to hold that love, make it last, but of course that's impossible.  The good part of that is that sometimes you hate the world, and the things in it, and you sometimes hate yourself too, but those feelings are fleeting, and they will pass too.

You realize that much of your life is caught up in how you "feel." But how you feel isn't really all that important.  Maybe not important at all.  Maybe not even important to you.  And maybe that's for the best too.  Maybe it's best to experience and live what you experience and live.  And what you feel about it all is pretty much irrelevant. But you don't act like it's irrelevant. No, you act like everything is important. Everything in some mysterious way is holy or sacred, even if you're not sure if anything is holy or sacred, even if you are just making it all up!