One Shot. Signifying Something.

Last night watching theater at the Abbie Fest, I couldn't help but think I was losing the grand narrative thread. I mean to life, not theater. Was there ever really a grand narrative thread? I don't know.

Anyway, it made for a sort of unsettling evening. Lots of sound and fury. Signifying something, but not sure what.

Which is not a bad preamble for our show tonight, a new piece, a little blast of madness, sort of characteristic of our work over the last few years. It feels like we have found a form, a sort of Waring Blender of elements, all whirring around together, adding up to something.

We perform at the Fest once. One time. One shot. I think that's appropriate too.

Talking to People in the Heartland

The last few days I've talked to some folks that I usually don't talk to. A couple Midwestern Moms. They are bummed out. Worried about their much less valuable houses, worried about their constantly vanishing 401Ks, worried about their just going to college kids, worried about a dim future.

I know Moms are worriers, but these particular Moms have typically been happy, dynamic, funny and friendly. I detected a little bit of panic in their voices at how things are rolling out. I think when a country loses the Midwestern Moms, it is in big time trouble. You sort of need people to believe that the future will be a better place. Not a yawning black hole of death!

And then that little Dude with the beard keeps hammering on how we haven't learned a damn thing from history or economics. When there is panic in the air, people cling to their prejudices - and this goes for politicians and economists too.

Lots of stupidity, lots of denialism, lots of blinkered thinking. I think that's how a country goes off the cliff... look out below!

Strangled by The Bow-Tie!

This Bow-Tie post by John Robb is revelatory. We kind of intuited that the Global Financial Network was a rigged game, but didn't know if it was just another manifestation of our normal state of paranoia!

It is great to see that someone actually studied the network and presents the evidence. How scientific and real world of them!

So while the politicians dither, and kick the shins of the poor people of the world, we find that the real problem is a "cancer" at the heart of the global system!

"It is in effect, the world's first super-organism. 147 trans-national companies that the global core that is owned by itself (3/4 of the ownership of firm's in this organism are owned by firms in the organism). This organism is beyond governments. If it is self serving (and this shouldn't be too hard to assume), it is the equivalent of a biological cancer that has metastasized." - J. Robb

Don't Worry It Won't Go to My Head!

So we were in the middle of another intense mixing session at the recording studio. Tweaking one of our tracks. As I've noted before, the more you listen, the more you hear. It's uncanny!

I have come to love the process, it's sort of like wandering around in a sonic hall of mirrors. There is an alchemy, a chemistry of sound. Very cool.

And we were talking about one of my guitar tracks. And then the Recording Engineer (a virtuoso guitarist in his own right) said the following:

"I love the sound of your guitar... it has a liquid, Hendrixy feel..."

All I can say is "Wow!"

Branding the Band!

We had some guests for a couple days. "Gradual students" doing a road-trip across the country. They are "couch surfing" their way across the land. They started in New York and will end up in Seattle.

Turns out the guy is a musician who is majoring in business administration with the goal of starting his own music publishing company. He was a fount of knowledge about music, and "branding" a band.

We were interested because we are in the midst a major step forward from our self-recorded efforts; a professionally engineered, recorded, mixed and mastered set of WhiteWolfSonicPrincess music. According to our guest, we need to tell people who we are in a couple nifty sentences. This has been a problem for us, our band's sound is pretty expansive and we're probably too close to it.

We played him a few cuts from our "work in progress." He described our sound this way: Uncle Tupelo/meets Cowboy Junkies/meets Gillian Welch meets Woodstock Nation where The Jefferson Airplane/the Grateful Dead/and Santana sit in for jam session.

Other people have told us they heard influences like The Rolling Stones, Neil Young, Bob Dylan and the Rolling Thunder Revue and Tori Amos ?!?!

When we told him our band name WhiteWolfSonicPrincess, his eyes just sort of glazed over. This happens all the time. I think it's because it's just too many syllables. Six syllables! What were we thinking?!

Think of all those two and three syllable bands: The Who, The Kinks, The Beatles, Wilco, Pearl Jam, Nirvana, Rolling Stones, Santana... the only outlier I can think of at the moment is The Red Hot Chili Peppers (7 syllables probably takes the cake!).

So we have a name problem. But on the other hand, the upside, if you Google WhiteWolfSonicPrincess, or White Wolf Sonic Princess, we are the only thing that comes up!

And just why did we pick that name? Sounded good at the time. A Male/Female, Yin/Yang kind of amalgam. It is one thing. One thing! Can we get people to remember it!? Once our disc is finished we want lots of people to hear it. And to remember it. Will it happen? I guess we will find out...

Pictures on the Wind

We rehearsed ourselves into a solid state of bleary-eyed-ness, and made significant progress on our little performance piece yesterday. Seems some folks are actually looking forward to seeing what we do at Abbie Fest this year.

It's always surprising to find that people do remember us, and remember some of our previous efforts. We have sort of found a form - we mix music, monologues, short scenes and poetry and keep it all moving quickly.

The last three or four pieces seem to me like excerpts from the same long-form work. It might be cool to put them all together at some point. We are making something, but it's funny, we get up on stage, do our thing and then melt back into the audience.

It's kind of like writing pictures on the wind...

"All of this shouldn't be here."

We visited the Mary Archie Theater last night to do a "tech run" of our show. We stepped through our piece and worked out the lights and sound. It was thrilling to be back on the Mary Archie stage. It is a great little space. The definitive black box theater. A place of good work and magic...

Afterwards we had a impromptu chat with the founder and proprietor of the theater. The man is a Wild Dog for sure... he said something that is still resonating with me this morning...

"We shouldn't even be here. All of this shouldn't be here..."

For some reason, I took this as a profound statement about our existential existence! And unaccountably, it was an exhilarating insight!

Coutdown to Abbie Fest

The countdown to the 23rd Abbie Hoffman Died for Your Sins Fest is now 6 days. The Fest this year runs August 19, 20 & 21, pretty much non-stop from Friday evening to the wee hours of Sunday night.

It has become a tradition for us. And we are not big on traditions. We wrote a piece called "You Must Believe" especially for the fest. This has kind of become our modus operandi! We used to do scenes from "works in progress" but lately we've not been doing lots of work, or making lots of progress. So we've risen to the challenge of writing in the moment for the moment.

Yes, and of course, the world is in turmoil: wars, famine, politicians dithering, people dying, people pissed off, markets up and down, whatever. And if you are in the "creative arts" ultimately all that "toil and trouble" is just so much mulch, fertilizer, and raw material for the "good work," whether it's a theater piece, a song, a poem, whatever...

People ask me, "where do you get your ideas?" I guess the best answer is "open your eyes!"

Our new piece is definitely a "zeitgeist-catcher." What do/must we believe in, in a world where believing in anything looks like a mug's game? At least I think that's what our piece is about.

Other people have described our work as "off-kilter," "abstract," "rock and roll theater." That's pretty good!

New Experiment?

It seems last century pretty much discredited the whole communist experiment.

It seems like in this century we are witnessing the discrediting of whole capitalist experiment.

Maybe it's time for a new experiment?

The Harder They Come, The Harder They Fall!

Maybe we forget that everything "man-made" fails. And of course, everything "nature-made" fails too. Failure is built into the fabric of existence.

We build systems and think these systems have a life of their own, but they don't. They are our tools. They are the tools we build things with, but the tools and the things we build crumble and fail too.

And the bigger, more complex the systems we build, the bigger and more complex the failures we unleash upon ourselves.

Boat-Loads of Free Money!

Give the people, the little common ones, boat-loads of FREE MONEY! I agree with Atrios. That was always the simplest, easiest and most direct way of "fixing" the financial crisis.

Maybe it sounds stupid. And people will tell you that it just can't be done. Smacks of socialism or something, but of course we ended up printing up boat-loads of money and then shoveled it to the Banksters, and then they basically hoarded it for themselves.

And the people continue to spiral down. And now all this talk of "austerity," and "budget cuts" is really a way of punishing "the people" for the sins of the wealthy elites. And, of course, as Paul Krugman points out, austerity in the face of this kind of economic down-turn is the worst kind of medicine.

"I’m still trying to make sense of this global intellectual failure. But the results are not in question: we are making a total mess of a solvable problem, with consequences that will haunt us for decades to come." - Paul Krugman

You might think the people in charge are just idiots, everything they are doing is actually making the problem worse, not better, but I think they are also greedy, unhappy folks who don't want to admit they don't know what they are doing, and they want to make us all suffer. Just because they can...

Coffee Round-Table

At the neighborhood coffee round-table, everyone noted the "panic" of the markets. One of the coffee-talkers announced that the panic was "irrational." When I suggested that the market is "irrational" when it goes up too, silence descended.

When I further suggested that the market has been "disconnected" from reality for a long time, someone else decided to change the subject, as if to suggest such a thing was beyond the pale.*

The conversation then turned to Mary Tyler Moore. Was she a "feminist role model," or just a "meek, submissive schlub?" It seems the knock against her was that on her show, she always called Mr. Grant, Mr. Grant.

That phrase "disconnected from reality" stuck with me for the rest of the day...

*BTW - This all folds in nicely with my theory that human beings are essentially "irrational" and that we pretend, or put on the mask of rationality when it's convenient. So it's not surprising that markets are irrational too, since the market is made up of many irrational actors. The problem with politics and economics is that we assume that people will act rationally when it comes to voting, or spending money; but I think it's clear that this is a false assumption!

Theater Magic

Well just how does theatrical magic begin? A script. A boom box. A small empty space with a cheap linoleum floor. Two people stumbling through lines and songs. Lots of hope and good intentions. And a determination not to suck.

D2 is Materializing Before Our Eyes!

John Robb is another one of those "go-to" guys. He always has a forward-thinking view of the world. He is a strategic thinker. He's been talking about the failure of the nation-state for a long time now.

And also the over-complexity of the global market. I think his basic point is that the global market is too complex for us to regulate and make work to "our" benefit. It's just too big, with too many conflicting and contradictory forces. He's been predicting a a major failure and re-ordering of the landscape for awhile now. His predictions seem to be materializing.

Robb is not just a doom-sayer. He is an advocate for a new order based on resilient communities. He's calling the 2nd Global Depression D2... Catchy!

Long Live Krugman!

Sure he's kind of wonky. He is a professor and he's got beard. Probably wears those suit-coats with patches on the elbows, but if you don't read Paul Krugman, then you are missing out on the only guy on the planet who seems to know what he's talking about.

He's a liberal, which is out of fashion, and he's a Keynesian, which is also I guess out of fashion, especially with the Wall Street Journal and the Chicago school of Economics. Turns out being out of fashion means you have the finger on the pulse of what's happening in the economy and in the political corridors of power...

Long live Krugman! And what is his secret? Clear seeing, clear thinking!

Our Essential Dupe-hood!

You watch our "democracy" at work and wince. It's hard not to be cynical. You still have hope. You still vote. You still stay engaged. You feel that if you don't vote and aren't engaged you are just a Dupe. But then again, you vote and stay engaged and feel like a Dupe too. Maybe that's why it all seems so pathetic. We have all achieved a complete and certain Dupe-hood...

Or as Matt Taibbi puts it (speaking of our hired representatives):

"But to a bunch of hired stooges put in office to lend an air of democratic legitimacy to what has essentially become a bureaucratic-oligarchic state, what good does such advice do? Would it have made sense to send the Supreme Soviet under Andropov or Brezhnyev a list of policy ideas for enhancing the civil liberties of Soviet citizens?"

You mention the Soviets and it all seems so clear. Here in the American Aquarium it is all so murky. But "bureaucratic-oligarchic state" rings so true...

And then the market tanks, and you know you probably shouldn't root for it to crash, still you kind of think it might be a good thing. Maybe the Wall Streeters need to feel our pain. Maybe then the stooges wake up?!

You vow not to hold your breath on that one...

American Exceptionalism

I don't want to down-talk America. But I was thinking about this concept of American Exceptionalism...

Some folks have put us up as an example of the shining city on the hill. But it is conveniently forgotten that our nation was founded on genocide (once we cleared the land of "Native" Americans and bison, we raped and pillaged the land!) and slavery.

I guess that is kind of exceptional. But maybe not in the way some people use the term.

Internal Monologue No Voices Required...

Now we can get back to normal...

Normal? What are you talking about? There is no normal.

Well now we can get back to the way things "used to be..."

There is no "used to be." That's a figment of your imagination.

Well now...

Get used to this... there's nowhere to go back to, there is no normal. Never has been. We are in uncharted waters. Always have been. All you can do is keep swimming and try not to drown in the stupidity.

Voracious Consumers!

As a diversion from the madness, we got into watching The Walking Dead a series that runs on AMC. We are watching it on DVD (no commercials) and are 4 episodes into it. It's kind of gory. Lots of blood, shooting and chasing. But it does seem pretty well-made and intelligent. To me it seems like some grand allegory.

I mean, there's these VORACIOUS CONSUMERS who are over-running the country. They are just plain hungry all the time. They are bloody, mindless, super-consumers. Remind you of anyone? I mean, did Putin just call the U.S. a parasite?!?

And then there's a small group of "survivors" who by luck and pluck are trying to make a new life. These are sort of an example of John Robb's proposed "resilient community." I guess these are the good common folks who are just trying to make it.

Suddenly all the things of advanced civilization have fallen by the wayside and these folks have to summon their courage and any skills they may happen to have, and use them to the best of their abilities (maybe that in itself is some kind of self-empowerment fantasy?!).

I'm reading it all as some collective dream or nightmare that our culture is having right now. Maybe by imagining the worst that could happen we deflate it, or forestall it, or maybe it's some kind collective premonition of what's coming.

It is sort of entertaining to watch people carry on in the face of the horror. Maybe that's a fantasy we all need to get our heads around!

An Instructive Suckiness!

What's really going on? The Empire is crumbling. Why? As John Robb tells it...

"... we now have the equivalent of centralized planning in global marketplaces. A few thousand extremely wealthy people making decisions on the allocation of our collective wealth. The result was inevitable: gross misallocation across all facets of the private economy."

And what about that deal our "leaders" have negotiated to solve a crisis of their own monumental stupidity?

As Kevin Drums tells it... "It sucks!" Which shouldn't be surprising.

And shouldn't lead you to despair. No, my positive spin for the morning is that of course the deal sucks, but don't worry it's an instructive suckiness! Our leaders are over-matched. They reflect the conflicted and unrealistic hopes and dreams of the citizenry.

The nation state is a failed state. The game is over. We will need to abandon our failed institutions and start over from a healthier grassroots-led movement based on love and happiness - not capital! Not bad news. Good news!