There is Awake and then AWAKE!

Consciousness  - "the state of being awake and aware of one's surroundings." Also - "the fact of awareness by the mind of itself and the world."

Yes there is "being awake," and "being AWAKE!"  We live for those times when we are fully awake and alive to the mind itself and the world.  I have fallen fully in love with being conscious.  I do want to "lose myself," but only if it's a portal to a "deeper consciousness."

Sometimes being conscious is painful, you are sensitive and aware of everything around you: the love and the hate, the joy and the pain, the life and the death. But I wouldn't trade it for anything. How is it that we have emerged into the world, that we can actually be conscious? It's a strange, beautiful thing.

If we could bargain, we might want to trade in our bodies, they are frail and subject to age and infirmity. They are unreliable. But consciousness is something you'd like to keep.  Forever.  But is it contingent on these bodies we lug around? Don't really know, but that appears to be the grand bargain of our existence.