And then you sometimes wonder, what's gonna happen next?! Like this is all some grand narrative, and you have your part, and you're waiting for the next scene, the next episode, the next season.
And for much your time on the planet it seemed like there was no theme or purpose, or end point, stuff just happened. Some of it happened to you, and some of it happened to other people, and well, that was the kind of show you found yourself in.
And you wished for things, and planned things, and sometimes your wishes came true, but mostly they didn't, and sometimes your plans panned out, and often they didn't, and sometimes you just floated along, and you realized you were really good at floating. And this was a "double-edged sword." A blessing and a curse.
And often you watched to see what came down the river, what was around the bend. And you realized, you weren't really all that good at "farsightedness." You did your best to see what was in front of your nose, and did your best to deal with that. And you realized it was that kind of show too.