So yes, we had a ragged show (see previous post) on Saturday. So, on Sunday, did we wear hair-shirts and lay on beds of nails? No, we didn't. We did dwell on the "bad-ness" of the show, and recounted how things went wrong. We mainly chalked it up to "doubt," and "miscommunication," on-stage.
It doesn't take much to kill the vibe of a show. A vibe is a delicate thing. So even all that rehearsing, and confidence-building, and good technique, can be diminished by little intangible things. That's sort of maddening if you are looking for consistency and excellence.
And the crooked "finger of blame" points right at me. I was the shakiest of the shaky. And since I "wrote" most of the music, my mistakes, my miscues and my uncertainty pretty much infected everyone else in my vicinity.
Anyway, like I said, all this was reviewed and digested. But really we have to take it all in as a "learning lesson." Shit. Our lives are just these long "learning lessons!" We learned! And promised ourselves and others that that won't happen again.
Although at the same time I have to admit that there's always something, a seeming infinity of variables, that can bubble up and upset the apple-cart! Always trying to lug those apples around!
So back to Sunday. We did not do penance. No, instead we traveled to the big city and saw a cool and mind/mood altering art exhibition at the Cultural Center called "Prairie", and had a delightful coffee concoction at Intelligentsia, and had a wonderful, satisfying meal at Mia Francesca. So no punishment. All pleasure. And a little bit of fretting!
And a re-dedication to our musical adventure! Damn the torpedoes!