The life you live inside your head is not always, or even usually, the life you live in the world. This can be disappointing. It also means there are surprises along the way, happy, and not so happy. You have to kind of slide with it. No sense in fighting it. It's best to find an ease in the whole divergence of realities. It is best to think of life as a gift, a gift you didn't really expect, or ask for, but a gift nonetheless. You have to adjust and endure, and do the best you can, even if you don't really know what's best or what's not best.