Always looking forward. That's just the trajectory of my life. I don't know if it's good or bad, it's just the way it seems to work for me.
I have a history. I have a whole string of false starts, abortive attempts, interesting experiments, dead ends, lots of flotsam and jetsam, lots of discarded or misused dreams.
It's not very edifying for me to look back. So I look forward and THINK NEW!