Wednesday, December 31, 2025

A Long Series: Life...

I am now living for a time at another's home. Care-taking. This morning, I open another's book at random, and find a few lines of  Emily Dickinson's poetry. These two lines hit the bullseye: 

I think to Live - may be Bliss
To those Who Dare to Try

I brought my own book too for the long stay over. Roberto Bolano's "Savage Detectives." Young poets in Mexico trying things. Beautiful, raging, raunchy, hilarious. Reading it for the 2nd time.

My partner told me it is a fallow time. Clear the field. Think about planting seeds. It is dark to dark here in the deep winter season. A good time to lay low, get our shit together. Dare to try new things.

A friend of mine remarked: "I like how you always have something positive to say." 

I replied: "Ha. It is the only way I can keep going."

It's true. Just survival. Thinking of Emily & Roberto. Yes. To Live. It's a Gift. But what to do with it? Keep a going until one can no longer.

Being Human, I find, is a long series. Drama. Trauma. Giving. Getting. Some days  there is a wide spectrum of broken. We wear our experiences on our skin, in our hearts & bones. There is satisfaciton weathering the weather.  Challenging. So cold, so windy, so hard, every step an adventure. Getting through in one piece, a sort of victory.

Laid low one day. Bounce the next. A Life.

Tuesday, December 30, 2025

Zombification...

Folk #1: The signs are everywhere. Zombification of the System. System fails everywhere you look. Lots of hurly-burly, toil & trouble. Lots of noise & thunder. We have been struggling with understanding WTF is going on. Something is happening. I think we are witnessing a death of something, and maybe a birth into something else. The corruption & idiocy is so prevalant, all-encompassing, all-consuming, it leaves one sort of breathless. We are just tiny elements in a grand symphony of decay. There is something to be said for a studied detachment. A stepping back and watching it all unfold. Not predicting anything at the moment, but it feels like seismic changes are happening, underground, overhead, in the ether. Stumbling towards a new dawn into something else. No idea or guesses what it actually will be...

Monday, December 29, 2025

Experiencing the Best...

Folk #1: Yes. We live in sleepy little town near a big, thriving, quite wonderful Midwestern City (Chicago - it is no hellhole). We take public transportation often. We remark to each other how nice riding the rails into the big City can be. We stroll the streets of this teeming urban environment. We mingle with folks from all races, creeds, colors, nationalities. We eat exotic foods "invented," in faraway lands. We are friends with folks who identify as "theys & thems." We are also friends with folks who have transitioned from one sex to another. This doesn't scare us, it only leads us to marvel at the  wonderful variety of human beings, being human, on this planet.  And we marvel at the acheivements of science & medicine. We are happy to break bread and converse with a diverse array of folks on politics, religion, pop culture. We love interacting with folks of all ages and generations, folks with experiences and histories very different from our own. I suppose that means we are "woke." Probably so. And it's marvelous, fulfilling, we really can't imagine living any other way. We turn away from irrational fear of "the other." We actually embrace the other. Seems so much better than the hell-hole vision of prejudice, racism, white supremacy, being force-fed to us from the purveryors of hate & ignorance in Washington D.C. and beyond. Our vision & experience of America is much more inclusive, open & welcoming. The best of us in a beloved community of souls. Yes. We had a good day yesterday. It was a beautiful, inspiring, enriching, nourishing experience. The Human Thing at it's best.

Sunday, December 28, 2025

Not for Me...

Paying attention to the crazy, the sick, the deranged...

That describes much of our social media, and pop & political culture. Not recommended. Detrimental to our mental health and well-being. I mean, yes, it's important to know what's going on in the world. To see what fresh hell your fellow humans are swimming in. It is important to be aware, alive, awake. But there are limits. You must sometimes walk away, shut your eyes, stop up your ears, observe from a healthy distance, and then dimiss with extreme prejudice. The crazy, the sick, the deranged, will slime the best of us. There is a gravitational pull that we all must resist. Tuning out the shite, not paying attention, carefully curating our intake; critical to sanity, good cheer, a healthy mind, body & soul. Yes. Being disicplined in thought, action & attention. Identifying the crazy, the sick, the deranged, seeing it clearly, and withdrawing. Taking a determined stance: not for me.

Saturday, December 27, 2025

Hanging Out with Other Human Beings...

Being sociable. That has been the theme the last few days. Hanging out with other Human Beings. Usually when my partner and I are around folks, we are on stage, performers performing for an audience, playing music with our band. The conversations before & aftewards are usually short & sweet. This holiday season, there has been no performing, just socializing: eating, talking, hanging out. Family & community. It has been a great, instructive reminder that Human Beings are social animals. We need the interaction, & communication to keep our heads in the game. Most of the folks we met and chatted with reside on the creative side of things: painters, poets, musicians, writers, DJs, teachers, gardeners. Our tribe. There is Hope in the tribe; everyone intent on keeping their heads, working on projects, living well-rounded, enriching lives. We all basically tuned out the looming dystopia. Sure, the horrow-show government, the fascists & bullies, hung over us like black, toxic-clouds, but we turned away, talked about music, & music-making, art, literature. It was all quite inspiring. The folk are doing their best to get through to next possibilities. Hopefully, maybe a better way, a better day ahead. We all wondered a little about what that could be, but the focus was on the next song, the next book, the next meal, the next good story.

Friday, December 26, 2025

Towards Better Human Interaction...

We have spent the last few days being sociable with our fellow human beings. That's the gist of the holiday season. A simple rule for better human interaction? Lead with smiles & kindness. Most likely you will get the same in return. Not always. There are those decidedly grumpy, surly, grouchy, pessimists in the crowd. You can steer away. Or look on them from a healthy distance with a dollop of amusement. It can be a form of entertainment, successfully navigating the black holes of the soul. Those black holes will swallow you up. I flashed on the "Power of Postive Thinking," during the holiday festivities. It's a tool, a useful & helpful one, as long as it's grounded in the real, and also being aware that there are limits. Postive thinking can change your body, your chemistry, just by conjuring up & flooding your brain with positive thoughts. It's true. Science backs it up. And that positivity can be extended to others. Not as a con, a hustle, a grift. Not with the intention of gaining the upper hand. Being positive just for the fuck of it is a good thing. Still, you don't want to over-do it either. There is a concept known as Toxic Positivity - the excessive and ineffective overgeneralization of a happy, optimistic state across all situations, dismissing or invalidating genuinely negative emotions like sadness, anger, or fear, even in difficult circumstances. Right. Dealing with human beings, you have to account for all valid thoughts & emotions. It's complicated, and a disciplined way forward. Still, leaning to the Light is definitely fun, fulfilling, and very likely joy-making!

Thursday, December 25, 2025

Sometimes, "I don't know, " is just Fine...

Folk #1: What is the meaning of all of this shite? You may think that a simple, clear declaration: "I don't know," might be a retreat, an abdication, a giving up, a turning away, a hiding inside the cloud of unknowing, and well, maybe so. So be it. At the same time, to say those words feels like a liberation, a relief, a little burst of joy, a way forward, a ripple of humility, an acknowledgement of the fundamental reality of the mysteries we swim in. Not having an opinion, or making a guess? Maybe that is just a disciplined mind? I mean, I know, that the human world we've constructed seems totally fucked up and confusing at the moment, things seem to be careening out of control, but I am ok with not having any answers about what that means, or why that is the case. Maybe there is no explanation, at least no good one, you know, maybe it's just all too much. Searching for meaning and answers in the shite?  What is the point? What is happening & why? Who knows?! Maybe the asking is a fool's game? No reason to think that one simple human being needs to have all, or any, of the answers at the ready. And, you know, often these simple "explanations," guesses, opinions are just muddying the waters. Not enlightening at all. So, yeah, living with "I don't know," right now, seems just fine. Pitch-Perfect. It's ok to just sit back and observe. As Dylan sings, "Watching the river flow..." Living with the "I don't know," the simple ambiguity of a life, is fine. It is fascinating to watch it all unfold.  Fills one with wonder. The not knowing what to say or think, in the face all the shite, seems oh so right, and surprisingly a certain freedom bubbles up & blossoms.

Wednesday, December 24, 2025

Lean into the Weirdness...

Yes. Things are weird. And getting weirder. That seems to be true. Human Beings are flailing, failing, unhinged. A long winding road of significant events seem to have broken our brains. Quick hit-list: 9/11, Iraq War, Afghanistan War, Bush/Cheney Torture Regime, 2007 Financial Crash, Hurricane Katrina, Electing a 1/2 Black/White Man for President in 2008, the Blacklash, Resurgence of White Supremacy, Trump I, Social Media Madness, Covid Pandemic, Lockdown, Mandates, Sleepy Joe, Greed-flation, Trump II, the Fascist Idiot Era, AI frenzy. Oh yeah, and the bleeding phones. Smart-phones. Broke Our Brains. We are all driving each other nuts. What's the remedy? Not sure. 

Tune out once in awhile? Sit back and watch the show? Maybe accepting the weirdness goes into the equation of healing? Still, it seems the weirdness transcends the healing. I suppose we are watching the disintegration of the world as we once understood it. Maybe this overwhelming weirdness is a reminder that we never really understood Life anyway. Maybe there is no true understanding, only experiencing. Life is bigger than all of us. It includes the darkness & chaos. And there are forces that transcend the human realm. Mystery. Like a black cloud hovering around everything, always dancing with the Light. There is no center to hold, there is no going back. Regenerate, Remake, Renew, Revive. Doing our best to thrive in the face of the unknowable. Lean into the weirdness. 

Tuesday, December 23, 2025

USA: We are all Complict in the Atrocities...


The TV news show Sixty Minutes spiked their segment about Trump's concentration camp in El Salvador. It aired in Canada, and folks are sharing it on the internet.

The mind reels from the horror of what America has become. You want to reach out for simplicity, a razor-sharp clarity, thinking it will help you cope. You hope you are not being simple-minded: We are all complicit in the atrocities committed in our names. We are all complicit in the Trump Adminstration's crimes against humanity.

Everything else is noise. That is the bottom line. A dark stain on our country and it's citizenry. As that Dylan song tells us: "Bury the rag deep in your face, now is the time for your tears."

Monday, December 22, 2025

Sometimes Chaos is My MIddle Name...

Folk #1: Sometimes I do think chaos is my middle name. I wonder, am I the source, the channel, the generator or receiver, or the conductor of the chaos? I am not thinking of major, catastrophic, chaos, no, more like little, tiny, moments of micro-chaos built into the smallest of actions & thoughts. I can be orderly & disciplined, I enjoy & cultivate my silences & quiet times, I love working in the calm before the storm times, setting up a theater space or a performance space, arranging the deck chairs, running the cables, placing the microphone stands in just the right place, setting the lights, conjuring up a mood & a positive, beautiful vibe. But then fill that space with a rambunctious crowd of human beings in close quarters, with friendly noise, and chatter, and  the power of electricty animating everything, drinks flowing, a soft buzzing in the air, anticipation & expectation floating above us, things happen. Unsourced feedback, a drop of sweat in the corner of an eye, an imprecise instrument, a cable fail, a weird noise from some unknown location, a tiny almost imperceptible tuning issue, being slightly sharp or flat, a surprising demand or comment from an innocent, a dropped guitar pick, a teetering,  a nearly tripping & falling, a hint of mortality, a surge of energy running through the cells of my body; funny, unconnected thoughts, words falling from my lips in surprising ways, my head suddenly swimming, uncommon feelings of being unmoored, uncomfortable. Conducting moments of chaos, trying to corral & tame things, but watching, listening, experiencing the awesome powerlessness alive in every tiny moment.

Sunday, December 21, 2025

Trying Their Best to Redact, and Deep-Six, the Truth...

Does Trump and his very corrupt DOJ think the American people are that stupid? Probably so. Trump's success is based on his own voters deep, in the bone, stupidity. Turns out lots of redacting going on in the partial, minimal, woefully inadequate release of the Jeffery Epstein files. We were supposed to get everything. Nope. Funny how references to Epstein's BEST BUDDY have been deep-sixed. Not sure this will satisfy all the inquiring minds who want to know the names of all the perpetrators. Hmmm... What are they hiding? Who are they protecting? Fuck. Haven't they learned anything? The Coverup just becomes the next phase of the scandal. We are there.

Saturday, December 20, 2025

The Terrible Ones are Ascendant...

Terrible people doing terrible things...

A simple shorthand for a deep understanding of "what's happening," right now, in pretty much every realm of our lives. As they say, "the vibes are bad." The Folk seem unhappy, crabby, out of sorts, conspiracy-minded, unhinged, untethered. Nothing seems to be clicking, everything seems to be careening forward like a driveless vehicle out of control, and over a cliff. Even basic public health, rudimentary common sense, is under assault. What is a good Pilgrim to say about it all? WTF?!? That is it.

Oh,  BTW, they released heavily redacted versions of a portion of the Epstein files. So our DOJ is not in compliance with the Law. Wonder what happens next? Was there a theme to the redactions? Hmmm. Seems one name just wasn't going to see the light of day. Hint: Jeffery Epstein's best buddy...



Friday, December 19, 2025

Positive & Dreamy...

Ah, well. You can only swim in the ocean of outrage for so long. Then you need to get to shore, dry off, and get on with it. Take care of yourself, and others too. Recharge, refresh, renew. We turn to music, laughter, love. My partner and I are so lucky to be able to keep a roof over our heads, to be able afford good, nutritious food, to cultivate an attitude of wonder & beauty. Ok. Sure, there are worries, doubts, kerfuffles, and bad juju swirling around us at all times. But we tend to lean to the positive & dreamy, we are "works in progress," doing the good work, trying to always be working on ourselves and in the community. It's important to have a job, to do our daily rounds. You know even if it's a low-level, menial  job, but, an honest job, earning an honest buck, there is something grafitfying in the doing, it keeps us in touch with the real world. All essential to keeping our heads on straight, to filling our hearts with goodness, keeping our bodies sound. There are no utopias over here. There is always a battle of contending forces. The key: doing stuff, keeping engaged, working thru. Sure, Good & Evil, it's an existential contest. We lean to the Light. Living in the grand, unhinged Era of Lies & WTF?! Making it anyway. Fuck it. Damn the torpedoes. 

Thursday, December 18, 2025

The American Gestapo Comes to Our Sleeply Little Town...

Folk #1: The American Gestapo, ICE & Border Patrol were back in our sleepy, happy little town yesterday. There were about 5 helicopters overhead, buzzing & circling like mechanical vultures, and I saw a burly, mirror-shaded officer in an unmarked vehicle on the corner of one of my familiar intersections. The day was a beauty; warmer temps, glorious sunshine, massive blue sky. It was certainly disturbing, and maddening to experience the clash between the Authoritarian Hellscape vs. Glorious Beauty on a Wednesday morning. There was one helicopter seemingly hovering over me as I walked down the path. I couldn't help but once in awhile pause, look up, and give it the finger & shout "Fuck You." I wasn't the only one unhappy about this surreal scene. Folks all along the path were shaking their heads, wondering WTF happened to our town?

Word later came that there was a raid going down near a Home Depot, the heavy hand of government oppression was targeting our neighbors and friends. Our tax dollars were being used to terrorize, harrass, & detain retail workers, landscapers, teachers, home-care workers, etc.  I must say ICE & Border Control are doing a magnificent job of radicalizing our community. The opposition against these disgusting operations grows by leaps and bounds. Safe to say most of the folks here hate this Nazified version of America.

Our mayor, our city council, are united in opposition to these terror tactics. They are losing the folk one raid at time. FUCK ICE. These agencies must be abolished, or heavily reformed. And the perpetrators of these human rights violations must be held to account. They are an obscenity. A blight, & a black mark on our country.

Wednesday, December 17, 2025

Two Words for our Present Circumstances.

Folk #1: Slinging words. Finding the right words, writing them down. Just the act of thinking & writing is important & essential to my well-being. I find that it is a way for me to swim towards some kind of clarity and understanding, even if what I am trying to understand is not really understandable, and clarity is a bit of a chimera. The writing down is a working through, or a working towards; it is a process of trying to process the workings of the world around me. Two words come to mind in the latest thrashings, skirmishes, and ungodly doings and sayings of my fellow human beings. Vile & Depraved. These words point other words: vile = "morally despicable or abhorrent, physically repulsive, foul, disgusting, uttlerly bad." depraved = "marked by corruption or evil, having or showing an evil and immoral character." There are a host of very prominent & powerful folks who have earned these over the top moral judgements. No doubt. I am sure you can guess of whom I am thinking.There are some humans who just make you want to distance yourself from the human species. You want to reach for some other window into the human soul, invoking Demonic & Angelic forces contending in our human bodies, but really, one suspects it is all just typical human behavior. A wide, grand spectrum of human posibility & capability. Demon or Angel, humans can channel both forces and do every day. Yes. When it goes bad it is truly ugly. I mean, even if you don't think of yourself as a moral authority, (and I don't), your simple Humaness makes you want to recoil, & retreat to a certain solitude, and a renewal of good cheer and good will unsullied by the craven bullshit of our present political & social cirmcumstances. You want to lean to your better Angels. Even if you fear an undercurrent, a shadow, in every ray of sunshine. It's a way of staying healthy & sane. Finding, cultivating & embracing those shining moments of goodness & light. It just takes a bit of will, dicipline and determination. Clarity requires us to admit that the worst and best can be found in our species.

Tuesday, December 16, 2025

A Culture Unhinged...

Folk #1: I am amazed, and super-surprised, that I appear (to myself), as more disciplined, more dignified, more circumspect, more level-headed, more gracious, more tempered, more even-keeled, more optimistic, more cultured, more full of good cheer, more grateful, more empathetic, more compassionate, & less fucked up than many, or even most, of the folks getting attention in the broader world; in politics, business, pop culture, social media, etc. I am thinking of folks who are supposedly more successful, smarter, more accomplished, powerful, influential, lauded & praised, than me. I mean, I know, that is a self-flattering, totally outrageous, unsupportable assertion & opening sentence; it is a bald-faced, over-arching generality. And it is not a statement I can back up with facts or proof. Also, I have usually thought of myself, observed myself, being a very sensitive, rambunctious, excitable boy, subject to the never-ending slings & arrows & hurly-burly of existence. But, over here, sitting in my own little bubble of silence, I am astounded by the sheer depravity of other people, those stupefying, noisy hordes who seem totally undisciplined, undignified, unhinged, and completely fucked up beyond any common sense, or semblance of reality. A noisy bubble of babel intent on getting attention, and saying, & doing, the most self-sabotaging, retrograde, idiotic, soul-killing things imaginable. It is gob-smackingly ridiculous. It's like watching and listening to a world gone mad, totally bonkers, watching other folks drive themselves, & each other, completely insane with idiocies, conspiracies, and disgusting trolleries. I am smart enough to know that I don't have all, or any, of the the answers, I don't always have my shit together, I have my foibles, & quirks, failures, blindnesses, and moments of total folly. As a result, I am humbled by my own deep human-ness. But I see a culture fantasitcally unhinged. And it is sort of shocking.

Monday, December 15, 2025

Partying with the Great Gatsby Crowd - Thoughts of A Better Way...

Folk #1: Post-party (see previous post), I think of William Blake's poem, Auguries of Innocence, the key passage:

Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born.
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.
Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.

Hell. Not everyone can be a Hedge Fund Manager. Do we really need Hedge Fund Managers? Not sure. Not everyone can be a landscaper, dog-walker, or house-cleaner. Do we really need lanscapers, dog-walkers & house cleaners? Not sure.

Each of us are on singular paths. I suppose the question we all need to ask ourselves: Can each of us find sweet delight in moments of our days? Even if for some us our days are filled with toil & struggle.

Living in a Democracy, we are captivated with the idea that we can all thrive & prosper, we can use the tools of government to make sure that all people are treated equally & with dignity. As one of my favorite politicians, AOC put it: Every billionaire is a policy failure. You know, it's takes a village to create a billionaire. How many public programs went into the creation of the wealthy? There are no self-made men or women. There is plenty of money floating around. And remember, money is just a game we play. Can we build a society where no child goes hungry, no human is homeless, all of us get a basic education, and access to healthcare, no-one is left behind & treated like "garbage." Aren't social programs smart investments in the people?

If you are a billionaire I suppose being a Libertarian makes sense. They want to keep every last dime they ever made and really don't want to share. Alternatively, most of the rest us can see the value in Socialism, instead of just lionizing the rich and punishing the poor, we see that a more equitable distribution of resources would be better for all.

Is that common-sense? Utopia? A worthy goal?

I suppose, partying with the The Great Gatsby Crowd, reminded me of that French Revolutionary Motto: Liberty, Equality, Fraternity. It's a balancing act. A continual working out, a striving forward to a better day for all.

In our capitalist economy there are winners & losers. It's true. There are those with so much, those with so little. The haves & the have nots. Maybe we can tilt the machine slightly? Redistribute the wealth a bit? In order to create a fair & just society? We set up the rules, we can use those rules to make the world a better place for the maximum amount of humans. Those with so much, give up a little, to help the those with so little. Not such a radical idea.  Seems like the humanistic way forward. Viva La Revolution!

Sunday, December 14, 2025

American Variety Peasants...

Folk #1: It was instructive. Undeniable. A bit intimidating & deflating. We went to a party last night and were confronted with unfathomable, unimaginable wealth. The kind of in-your-face, over-amped wealth that you just can't get your head around. How does anyone make this much money to to be able to inhabit such extravagance & luxury? Not exactly dictator-chic, too classy for that ugly Mar A Lago type grossness, but absolutely maximum luxury fortified with Hedge-fund mad money. Yes. Hedge-fund $$. An astoundingly large, over-built, mansion, sitting in a prime spot, right on the shore of Lake Michigan, surrounded by, hidden behind, an enormous impenetrable stone wall, almost castle-like, a vast front yard, and Olympic sized, outdoor pool. The house itself was super-sized, as if  it was built for a extended family, or really, an unwieldy tribe of giants. You could comfortably fit our apartment in their living room. Gorgeous art on the walls, sculptures, a grand piano, a woman playing classical pieces, jazz pieces and show tunes too. Servants walked around with fancy bites of food, a well-stocked bar with a smiling bartender. We were surrounded by very accomplished, prestigious folks. The kind of folks who sit on boards of major companies, folks who work at places like the Federal Reserve. Architects, Hedge Fund folks, Economists, Corporate Executives. These are all made, solid-gold people. Definitely "the Haves." We did not belong there. My partner and I are folks from the margins, the working stiff class. We were welcomed with open arms, but, no doubt, we felt a bit like circus-people, you know fish out of water. These are our neighbors, we see them out on the streets and paths often, but this was a revelation, and a reminder, that the rich really do live in a different world. We think that in America we all somehow transcend class, and it is true, we were all in the same room together, speaking a common tongue but, for sure, economically, materially, worlds & realities apart. Some of our worries, you know, feeding, clothing, & housing ourselves, basic survival-type things, aren't really concerns for these folks.  In many ways we are in totally different galaxies, that just so happen to be situated side by side in our town. I mean, we live blocks away in the "apartment living" part of town. We didn't talk politics, or current events, we stuck to dogs, music & literature. Safe harbor topics. These folks belong in a Henry James novel, or you know The Great Gatsby, we belong in a Samuel Beckett play. The party could have, but didn't, send us into a deep existential crisis, ok, maybe a little hint of an existential crisis, I mean, wtf, we didn't feel any envy, or ill-will towards these folks but we also couldn't avoid the idea that we are not on the winning side of the equation, we are on the outside looking in, still walking, talking & breathing, but, for sure, holding the short end of the stick. You can't really fault these folks for being super-wealthy & super-accomplished. They are truly the economic winners in our capitalist fanstasy-land. But it was overwhelming, & quite humbling for us to see all of this up close & personal. My partner & I, we both come from a long line of working-stiffs, folks who were lucky to just make it day to day, often paycheck to paycheck. We are clingers to the moment;  common folk, not exactly have-nots, but, basically adequately-housed & fed peasants, American-variety lower-class, peasants, just one catastrophe from catastrophe. And, well, that's our reality, and it's ok. I mean, it has to be...

Saturday, December 13, 2025

A Lab Project in Flux...

I am reminded again, we humans are basically chemistry sets. Little labs of chemicals. Getting the mix right is essential. What we ingest is consequential. The stresses, worries, anxieties of the day, the sheer physicality of getting through a day, all take their toll, and influence the chemical balance and/or imbalance in our bodies. We should all be smarter about chemistry. Everything counts. Get it right and you can flow & fly with the day. Get it wrong and you hit the wall, dead man walking. Doing research, it's a constant task and process. Experimenting on the fly. Life is a lab project in flux. 

Friday, December 12, 2025

The Reckoning Has Begun...

Folk #1: Ha. Trump is losing on many fronts now. Indiana didn't bend the knee, Kilmar walked out of detention a free man (for now),  Presidential approval ratings are diving to historically low levels, Americans are thinking they really fucked up by electing this old, very sick man. Funny how electing a toxic clown good at bankrupting casinos, and pretending to be a smart guy on TV, is really, really bad at politics. Trump soon will be as popular as testicular cancer. America's cut-rate, felononious, tin-pot, faux-gold-leaf, dyed in the wool deplorable-racist, wanna be authoritarian is flailing & failing. Everyone is starting to notice. Ok, maybe not the hard-core, zombie, MAGA hordes, or the retro-anti-human Nazis, but you know, every other sentient human being can see that this very bulbous, brain-fried man is out of his element, out to sea, drowning in his own hate-filled idiocy. The Reckoning is happening now. Expect lots of huffing & puffing, noise, and bad-action, but it's all for a losing cause. Sure, the guy gets to live in that very trashed and sullied White House, but he is the lamest of lame ducks, he is dead-man walking. Even folks in the Republican party realize that in order to survive, they need to turn away from that great white whale of failure. The blubbering words will still emanante from his greasy lips, but most of us will tune that shit out. America will move forward and leave that piece of shit in the dustbin of history. Mark it!

Thursday, December 11, 2025

Teetering on the Brink...

Folk #1: I am no financial wizard. I don't invest in the market. I don't have any great insights. I do follow a few smart people, economists, & market-watchers, who do know how the economy and the markets work. I do tune into the vibes, & I do have my eyes wide open. I see all of these flim-flam folks; the grifters, the con-men, the scammers, the disrupters, the over-amped billionaires, the AI lunatics, all those filthy rich folks throwing around billions of dollars like confetti. They all think they are geniuses and they believe that they play by different rules, or no rules at all, unlike us common folk. They have turned the USA into some creepy, glitzy casino of bad faith and corruption. Some of us watch in wonder & awe. Some of us watch in horror. If, like me, you believe in gravity & reality & common sense, you begin to suspect that all of this furious hurly-burly, panicky spending and crazed-investment in a hazy, lazy future of robots, colonization of Mars, and an AI singularity, is just fever-dream, ketamine-driven, cocaine-hallucinating dribble. What is the sentence of the day? I am not making any dire predictions. Who knows what the future holds? But the phrase ping-ponging in my head: Teetering on the Brink of Bust & Bankruptcy. And as in Shakespeare's Macbeth, I say: Let it Come Down...

Wednesday, December 10, 2025

His Brain is an Exploding Jello-Mold...

Folk #1: Yes. Again, Paul Krugman gets it right. We all have PTSD now. What's the problem? It comes down to one very sick, corrupt, racist, deplorable man in a position of great power. It is pretty amazing that all of the flaws, sins, idiocies, and crimes of America are embodied in one man, but it is undoubtably true. Weird how that happened. We are assaulted every day by his actions, his words, his example. He is totally bonkers now, seems his brain is turning to mush, an exploding jello-mold, and he spouts vile words like a very toxic volcano. He has no discipline, no control. He is a raging, drooling abomination. He is unhinged, and out of touch. The American Dream is just a plaything for him. He has no idea how to do his job. Funny. We, at one time, were the envy of the world. A shining city on the hill. All that has evaporated under this fat-freak's thumb. Of course, most of the country is at odds with all of this madness. This very powerful man isn't powerful enough to crush the opposition. In fact, every word he utters now enegerizes the opposition. He isn't all there. Which is his fatal flaw, the flaw that will ultimately crush him. Which is some kind of beauty. The fatal flaw, the ultimate sabotage is actualized by his own cruelty, meaness, idiocy, and deep ignorance of America, the Constitution & the Rule of Law. Most of us know he is a sad excuse of a Human Being not worthy of our time. 

Tuesday, December 09, 2025

Full-Metal-Stoic...

Finally. You are left with just the day to day slogging through. You must draw upon your inner Stoic to make it. Whining, complaining, raging against your fate is just wasted energy, energy that you need to survive. "Living a well-reasoned Life;" a worthy goal. Even if sometimes the Universe doesn't appear to care a whit for one's reasoning. Is the Universe reasonable? Maybe, maybe not. Maybe beyond Human Reason? Still, even if things don't make sense, even if "bad things," happen, death lurks around every corner, innocent children die, the evil ones thrive & face no consequences, even if sometimes it seems that Chaos Rules, the honorable, admirable way forward is to be a fully-rounded, fully-engaged Human Being gravitating to, aspiring to, living a life of Stoic Virtue. Full-Metal-Stoic. No doubt.

Monday, December 08, 2025

The Moment...

Monday morning. Up early. Still dead-black-dark outside, no hint of the sun. The coffee is really good, and it's doing it's job, which is to fire up my synapses, get the brain waves rocking, fortifying myself to face a challenging day out on the very cold, snowy, icy, midwestern streets. The cold & snow makes everything a little bit harder.

Feeling sort of philosophical this morning. Thinking about the Past, it's sort of a strait-jacket, but it is malleable. You can't change what happened in your life, but you certainly can change how you feel and think about it. And, you can let it all go. Ease up, inhabit the moment, and surprisingly, that strait-jacket just falls to the floor.

It is the same trick with the Future. You know, supposedly there will be a Future. But you never quite get there. It's always just the moment to moment. The present is always with us. The Past & Future are just mind-games we play on ourselves.

So yeah, long way around to one of my essential life-lessons and core beliefs: Be Here Now. Everything is Now. It is actually quite a Hopeful & Powerful realization, it is all about living in the present moment. It is where things actually happen, shit gets done,  it is where you have agency, ability & capability; you control the horizontal and the vertical. You condense that vast spectrum of Life into the very essential Moment.

Sunday, December 07, 2025

The Power of Reading & Writing...

Folk #1: Reading & writing. Might be a super-power. I mean, I am no Shakespeare, Faulkner or Hemingway but I love to read & write. It is a past-time that I swim in happily. Over the last few days I was implicated in a weird conspiracy. Falsely accused; which is one of my hot-button issues. Maybe there is some deep in the bone trauma from when I was a youngster? Injustice. It really fires me up, it goes along with my loathing of bullies of every stripe. So, anyway, maybe it was just a little innocent misunderstanding, but I took it as an deep existential blow to the core of my being. Overly-dramatic? Maybe, but, you know, I am just built that way. So, what to do? I composed a little missive, arguing my case, presenting my truth & reality, and I fired it off to a very important person in charge. Basically the judge & jury. My few well-chosen, well-composed words and sentences made the whole thing evaporate & vaporize. The field was totally cleared. The madness was exposed as folly. My perceived nemesis was revealed, vanquished, and their conspiracy-theory was dismissed as an overly-emotional and paranoid rant. Of course, as completely empathetic folks we took pity on the ranter, & have shown nothing but kindness to this person. I was pretty happy & surprised at the immediate result. You never know how the thud of truth will be received. Anyway, that is the power of words. Clarity. Clear-seeing. Reading & writing, yes, a super-power indeed.

Saturday, December 06, 2025

Denial - Grave Peril...

Folk #1: Yeah. The thing is, denial  can be a powerful tool & maybe it's sort of like a drug. You use it in times of hardship, or distress. You use it to power through difficult circumstances, you know, like that Vince Lombardi line: when the going gets tough, the tough get going. But, then again, like any tool it is a double-edged sword. Denying reality is basically lying to your self. Do that enough, and you put yourself in grave danger. You put yourself in peril because of a deep, in the bone mismatch between your self and the world. That is the way of madness, lunacy, self-sabotage & self-harm. If a society, a culture, a politics is founded on deep denial of reality, it is a failed, and immoral society, culture and politics. Remember those old maps: YOU ARE HERE? We all here, now. "Danger Will Robinson!"

Friday, December 05, 2025

Do they admit that they murdered folks for no good reason? Nope.

Folk #1: "The tone has been set. Even if you are tone-deaf it is easy to grasp the tone. Can you grasp a tone? Ha. Messy, right. What is the tone of which I am writing? Lying. The tone is lying. Over & over & over. These folks lie about the little things, the middle things, the big things. Everything. You have video evidence of murder on the high seas? Do you trust your eyes? Your senses five? What do the liars do in the glare of a clear & present reality? Do they admit that they murdered folks for no good reason? Nope. They lie. Lie. Lie. They double, triple, quadruple down on the lies. What do the rest of us to do? Call out the lies, point out lies, look to other folks who are willing to look reality in the face. Does reality have a face? Let's imagine that is does. Reality. It's homespun. It's expansive. It is cold, hard, necessary, essential. Life is to be found in the real. These lying human beings now in power are not credible. They are hollow fools, and bad actors. They are swamping us. Destroying any shared sense of reality or truth. It is a deadly, stupid, corrupt game they are playing. The rest of can choose a different way forward & we must. What do we cling to? Clear-seeing. Sifting thru the evidence and the clues. Doing our best to establish the facts. Being brave in the face of contrary indications. You know reality is an unforgiving companion. We must be willing to admit that we are human and fallible and forge forward with a desire and an imperative to live honestly. It's a full-time job."

Thursday, December 04, 2025

"Rotting Head Phase of the American Experience..."

Folk #1: "That fat, old, racist, extremely unhinged & unhealthy white guy ranting & raving in the oval office? Lying about a community of Somalis in Minnestoa? About 95% of them U.S. Citizens? Spouting, ugly racist idiocy? Yikes. There is no bottom to that man's despicable nature. Made me think of that phrase: "The Fish Rots from the Head." We are now in the "rotting head phase of the American Experience." And what of all those lickspittles, spineless lackeys, morally corrupt toadies standing around while that creep babbled such ugly nonsense? They all should be ashamed of themselves. Each & every one of them should have walked out in protest. They didn't, instead, they stood around like deer-in-the-headlights, racist zombies, grinning assholes, which tells you everything you need to know about these people."

Wednesday, December 03, 2025

State of the Union - "Laughable, Tragic, Unwell..."

Folk #1: Let me jump in with an early take on the State of the Union. Laughable, Tragic, & Unwell.  The only Hope for us all is to be found in the Oppostion. As they say, "we need fighters," the nation's lonely eyes turn to the Democratic Party. 

BTW - Please check out this speech & press conference from Arizona Senator Mark Kelly. If you are an engaged American Citizen, this is "must-watch." Mark Kelly absolutely destroys Trump and Hegseth. A complete, totally devastating takedown of those two very corrupt, ridiculous, dishonorable men. Kelly is a legit, real, American Hero. Fearless. Now that's the kind of smart, tough-minded, clarity we need in order to remake and renew the American Dream. 

Tuesday, December 02, 2025

Now for the Great Unraveling...

It might be hard to believe, but I think things are about to get even weirder. "Chaos Rules." You know, the case of murder on the high seas, may lead to some major consequences for all involved. That is the way it is supposed to work. But the folks in power are so corrupt, so distant from any sense of competency, decency, integrity, truth, and honor, that things may just go majorly tilt. Funny how reality, just won't give up. Figure lots of gnashing of teeth, pounding the table, rage-posts, crazy ass rants on cable TV, lots of hurly-burly, scapegoating, finger-pointing, gaslighting. The rats will turn on each other. It may quickly get really ugly. I can see lots of things devolving & unraveling on many fronts. It's a dangerous time to be in the USA. No-one in charge really knows "shit from shinola." Could get really scary. That seems to be the lay of the land at the moment.  Yikes.

Monday, December 01, 2025

Patti with Death On Her Shoulder...




I finished reading Patti Smith's "Bread of Angels" (2025). It is a beautiful, "death-haunted," memoir. I suppose if you live long enough you too will become "death-haunted." Death is sort of the mystery that envelops every life. Those of us still living must contend with the reality and finality of death in our own particular ways. Patti reaches out to the mystery & the poetry. It's admirable, inspiring and deeply sad too. I was happy to read the book, and also happy to finish it. Patti lost some of her most significant lovers, inspirers, and co-conspirators early on. And she lost many more significant & influential folks over the years. She pays tribute to all those who gifted her along the way. An extraordinary life. The r&r shaman & poet. I recently purchased the 50th Anniversary Edition of her debut album "Horses." (1975). The remaster CD sounds fantastic. One of the greatest debut albums of all time with probably, for me, the greatest opening lines of all time. Certainly lines that made this lasped-Catholic boy sit up and take notice. Yes. Head-opening. A glorious liberation: "Jesus died for somebody's sins, but not mine..."  The lines that follow are epic too: "... my sins are my own... they belong to me... to me..." Very Jean Paul Satre "existentialist," don't you know?! And then throughout her rendition of the classic r&r song, "Gloria," Patti adopts the persona of a very insistent & aggressive rebellious-tomboy, on the hunt for a pretty young thing, "leaning on the parking meter, humping on the parking meter," or maybe she's imagining embodying a creative, rebellious, rambunctious boy, something along the lines of a young, surrealist-cowboy-mouth Dylan or an illminated Arthur Rimbaud? You know, totally, fucking extraordinary, mind-expanding r&r, right up there with Dylan's great album "Highway 61 Revisited" (1965).

Sunday, November 30, 2025

Degradation Marathon...

Have we hit bottom in the degradation marathon? Murder. Blowing away fishing boats & fishermen in the Carribean. One humble, sort of optimistic pilgram wonders if, as Roger Waters once sang about a different topic: "The Tide Turning." Word is a Senate & a House Committee are calling for hearings. Now that is an interesting development. Folks are beginning to speak up. Questions are being asked. Cracks in the firmament. What looks like a solid, unstoppable fascist takeover, now seems shaky, stupid, unAmerican. Are the forces of opposition reaching ignition-point? Who knows?! One can hope. Seems plausible that this old, toxic, multiple-felon Prez is losing his shit & his mojo. Does the fall come in a rush? Slow at first, then all at once? I can see it, I can conjure up the picture. Of course I've been thinking & expecting a fall for a long, long time. I was godsmacked the first time, and double-gobsmacked since. Is there a bottom to the corruption, the crime-spree, the idiocy, the unapologetic racism and ill- will? Will we actually hit bottom and then rise up? Not sure. Wouldn't it be nice?

Oh yeah, and well, don't forget...

Saturday, November 29, 2025

The Crimes of the Trump Administration...

If you are paying attention, you come to the grim realization that this administration is committing crimes in our names. Unfortunately, even those of us who are deeply opposed to this lawless cabal running the USA are implicated too. It was the same with the Bush/Cheney Torture Regime. All of us are slimed & stained by the crimes against humanity.

Let's just put a marker down. Sure, there are so many ways we are going wrong, but let's not ever forget these crimes:

1. Destroying USAID, leading to thousands (millions?) of deaths around the world.
2. Murdering fisherman in the Carribean.
3. Snatching, disappearing & abusing humans in streets of America. Day laborers, landscapers, teachers, food service workers, folks who have helped make America a thriving, wonderful place.
4. Destroying healthcare in America for millions. Taking health insurance away from common folk. Lying about vaccines. Unconscionable. Idiotic too.

Not acceptable. Those in the administration who are reponsible must face the consequences of their actions in a court of law. It will be an essential reckoning in the next administration.

Friday, November 28, 2025

Waiting on a Friend...

Waiting on a friend. That is me. Often. And when I am, I do hear and sing along with that Rolling Stones song. Yesterday my friend and I met up and had a fabulous Thanksgiving dinner at just around noon. It was fabulous, everything you could want or imagine. We filled ourselves up with food, and then hung out together. We chatted, tried to avoid talking about the fascist regime, and stuck to philosophy, music and our days of wonder together. We watched Spike Lee's amazing and dazzling new movie starring Denzel Washington, "Highest 2 Lowest," (2025). Is it a fucking great movie? Yes, indeed, it is.  My friend told me she had a "visionary dream," the night before. We often tell eachother, right before we go to sleep, "Let's get an answer," it seems the previous night she did. What was the answer? "Change Your Mind." We both thought that was brilliant advice. A message from the gods & angels. It can applied in so many ways, and in any situation. Sort of a superpower. We have the ability to transform ourselves & the world in a blink of an eye. The human mind is sort of an amazing thing, it should be used, it is flexible, strong, and open. But of course, it's left up to us to decide what is worthy of changing, and what is worth sticking to. I immediately ran thru many of my own personal beliefs & prejudices, lazy thoughts, and tentative answers. I imagined a menu sort of like a stone tablet. What will I chisel in stone? What will I erase? Maybe I could start over from scratch? Roll away the stone and instead write on the waves, or in the breeze with invisible ink. Yes. 

Thursday, November 27, 2025

Fascinated by Terrible People = Not Good...

A culture fascinated by terrible people has it's downsides, like filling one's head with silly garbage, and over-amped deadly shite. We should all be better curators of information. There is only so much territory in our head-spaces. We are doing our well-being, our intelligence, and our good cheer, a major disservice when we wallow in the bullshit. Taking in vast quantities of terribleness is not healthy or good, or smart. The trick is to seek clarity. Sometimes that means turning away, shunning, and disregarding those stories and humans that don't deserve our attention. There are many, many of those. Too many of course, and these freaks and their freaky shite, are elevated, and broadcast to us obliterating our common sense & decency. A disciplined & studied avoidance, "serpentine, serpentine," is essential. You don't have to watch, to read, to listen to, all the petty, stupid, dangerous, ridiculous idiocy, floating in the air. Sure, stay aware, alive, awake, but sinking into the mire of terribleness is not a way to a better life. You can pick and choose what you pay attention to. I think best to adopt Melville's Bartelby the Scrivener credo: "I would prefer not to..." Much of this soul-killing hurly-burly & jet-trash does not merit our precious time or brain cells.

Wednesday, November 26, 2025

Following Your Bliss, Over the Cliff...

I am not really a "moralist" - I don't have a set of rules & forms that I think everyone should follow. You know, I am more of a "different strokes for different folks," type of philosopher. I suppose if I were to sum up my own personal credo, it would be something like: Be Good, Kind, Gracious. Lean to the light. Don't fuck over other people. Find the things you love to do, and try to fill your life with those things. You know, Joseph Campbell's great advice: "Follow Your Bliss."

It is very difficult and disturbing to watch folks who are clearly out to fuck over other people in positions of power and influence, running roughshod over everyone else. Watching distinctly bad people doing especially bad things for celebrity, dollars, power and kicks. And these decidedly corrupt, ugly-souled Humans getting away with shit, with no consequences. It's bad juju for all the rest of us. Sure, now that I think of it, these folks are probably following their bliss, it's just that their bliss comes out of dominating, cheating, and pummeling other folks. These are pathological cases elevated.

So it's a sick & twisted version of Campbell's directive. Aye there's the rub. Not everyone wants to just get along, not everyone wants to live and let live. That's the conundrum of being a Human Being in a very Human world. The evil-doers often win, and expect everyone to clap & bow.

And I am left with a very unkind, ungracious, response: Fuck that. Fuck them.

Tuesday, November 25, 2025

The Big Reveal...

What does social media tell us? Human Beings are not as smart as they pretend to be; they are impulsive, childish, cruel, snotty, bat-shit crazy, contradictory, self-sabotaging, raging, racist-forward, fascist-friendly, super-corrupted in their emotions and thinking. Very little common-sense, no impulse-control. I suppose its just the big reveal. Maybe not so surprising. You remember your lessons from the long-ago, deep misty mountain past; the bullies, the stupid ones, the cruelty, the meaness, the violence, bloody noses, broken-glasses laying on the playground. You always suspected there was a con-game going down, and well, it all seems so true & obvious, writ large on the internet, and in the pages of the news, all now dressed up in adulthood. And the wealthy ones, the powerful ones, those lording over the little ones, are no different, in fact, many of them (most of them?), are basically little needy creeps hiding behind their castle walls, tweeting, posting and shouting, total shite. Those talking loudest are, of course, the most broken, sick, touched & twisted.

Monday, November 24, 2025

Sunday, November 23, 2025

Read the Universe as a Poem...

Yes. Reading Patti Smith's Bread of Angels (2025). Reminds me again that we live in a Universe of signs and wonders. It's best to read the Universe as a poem, and the trick is to manifest ourselves day to day, as working poets alive in the moment to moment. It's just the more soulful & inspiring way forward. I think it's a choice, and a discipline; an attitude & code for living we need to work on, and towards. Of course, this grand, epic poem is bounded, and founded upon, death, loss, disfigurement, dislocation, disappointment. That's just a Human Being being Human. We get to have it all, and lose it all too. That is the way the Universe rolls. 

Saturday, November 22, 2025

Sometimes You Just Have to Laugh...

There were so many twists & turns, we just had to laugh. Deep belly laughs. So deep, so loud, so filled with untrammeled joy. Hard to explain. All the pain & tragedy unfolding around us, the streets full of danger, and under assault from an evil government agency. The Liars out in force to destroy our happy land. Then a couple unexpected, totally weird events popped up before our hungry eyes. Maybe we have been seeing things incorrectly? This really is an insane comedy. What to do? Sit back and laugh, so hard, so completely, a full body release. Exhilarating. Wild. Kooky. A sweet way to end a long & winding day.

Friday, November 21, 2025

Yes, Of Course, Refuse Illegal Orders...

“Like us, you all swore an oath to protect and defend this Constitution. Right now, the threats to our Constitution aren’t just coming from abroad, but from right here at home. Our laws are clear: You can refuse illegal orders; you must refuse illegal orders. No one has to carry out orders that violate the law or our Constitution. We know this is hard and that it’s a difficult time to be a public servant. But whether you’re serving in the CIA, the Army, our Navy, the Air Force, your vigilance is critical.”

You would think a video of U.S. Senators and U.S. House Reprenstatives who served in the military & intelligence services, reminding other active duty officers that they took an oath to the Constitution,  and the Law, and should, and must, refuse Illegal Orders, is obvious, common-sense, patriotic, and totally non-controversial.

Of course, this Administration immediately reacted like Fascist cry-babies. Which tells you everything you need to know about this lawless cabal in power. Everyone should watch this video. It is admirable & inspiring that these folks are speaking up. Of course, follow the Law & the Constitution. "Elementary, Dear Watson..."

Thursday, November 20, 2025

Essential to Keep Our Heads, Hearts & Spirits Nurtured & Alive...

My long-time partner and co-conspirator are lucky. We write songs together. We have a band. We get to play our original songs with a group of extraordinary Human Beings and Musicians. We do it often. Our rehearsal studio is just few blocks away. We usually conduct rehearsals on Wednesdays & Saturdays. "The Band," is actually just an idea. For longest time I used to think it meant these people, now, in this room, but really, "our band," has always been a loose, and open collective of creative souls. Folks come & go. We have played with some of these folks for years, but then, if I peruse the historical record, the only constants within our band is my partner and I. You know, always be morphing, evolving, growing. Even the band concept is long-form improv. That is not to say, we are a "jam-band," we really are not. We don't jam. We always start with a song that we bring to the band pretty much fleshed-out and structured. Then we float it into room and let everyone contribute. It is a powerful, organic, method of creation. Everyone has a buy-in to the process. There is something otherworldly, and profoundly gratifying about being in a roomful of musicians all working together on one thing, at the top of their games. We give it our all, always. Our rehearsals can be an incredibly healing activity; losing ourselves in the moment of creation. There is a certain "transendence" that occurs when you no longer are conscious of your surroundings, you are lost in the vibrations of creation & collaboration. We did again yesterday, just three of us. We walked in to the room feeling a bit down, tired, frazzled  & fractured from the madness swirling around in the world, and we ended up dropping all that, once we started playing together. Instant Karma. Hard to explain. Words can't really convey the magic of it all. We almost always "get there." Drop the ego, lose consciouseness, emerge alive in the moment to moment. Just doing it. That is extraordinary. Sure, we then take our work out into the world, play shows for other folks. But it all starts & comes together in our rehearsals. Life-affirming. Healing. Really, the essential good work. I can't imagine not doing it. Keeps our heads, hearts & spirits, nurtured and alive. 

Wednesday, November 19, 2025

Yes. It's Epstein. Always Has Been...

Ok. That's funny. Unexpected. The House & Senate voted to RELEASE THE EPSTEIN files yesterday. Trump & his minions did everything they could think of to prevent that from happening, the Speaker of the House actually shutdown the government for 40 days to avoid the vote, but then, suddenly, everything changed. Seems no one wanted to be seen to be protecting Epstein and his friends & co-conspirators. Political Toxic Waste. No one wants to be on the Epstein white-wash team. What now?!

Reminds me of one of my go-to phrases: "A change of consciousness can happen in an instant."

A reason to believe, and to hope. Change, & Improv is built into the Universe.

Still, I can't help thinking that some fresh fuckery is a'foot. Trump really, really, really wants all of this to disappear. But he can't just wish it, or distract us, away. The political winds have shifted, suddenly the Big Bully is flailing, failing, and looking really weak, stupid, old, tired, and brain-fried. Even a few Republicans are shifting away from Trump. The Epstein Files have emerged as his kryptonite. Does he sign the bill? Does he try to sabotage, and fuck with the release?

If he signs the bill, the files, all of them, should be released. But I can't help thinking that won't happen. Trump's lackeys in the Justice Department, must be planning on pulling a fast one. Scrubbing the files of any mention of Trump, destroying evidence? Of course, destroying evidence is a crime. Funny if the original crime doesn't get you, often the conspiracy & coverup will. You must figure the cover-up will continue. But this kind of whacky conspiracy-theory never dies, it just morphs, evolves, and gets more toxic. More toxic, more prominent, and more deadly to the current Prez. Never forget Trump & Epstein were best buddies for a long time.

He is caught in a maze of his own doing. Every movement just tightens the trap around him. Where does this go next? Beats me. Inquiring Minds want to know...

Tuesday, November 18, 2025

Quick Hits...

1. AI Boom to go Bust? Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.
2. The Tide is Turning from the bad to the good in America? Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.
3. President Trump is cracking up over Epstein? Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.
4. The Justice Department is being swallowed up by incompetence & corruption? Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.
5. ICE & Border Control is flailing and failing and radicalizing Americans against them? Yes. Slow at first then in a rush.
6. The Lies are finally catching up to, and swamping over, the Liars? Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.
7. Crypto is exposed as a fraud and collapses? Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.
8. Sports gambling is exposed as a fraud and a scourge, impoverishing bettors, & major sports scandals coming? Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.
9. Financial Market crash?! Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.
10. Truth, Common Sense, Goodness, Kindness, Gravity, Reality will own the day? Yes. Slow at first, then in a rush.

Ha. The Great Seer sees! Mark my words!

Monday, November 17, 2025

The Fire Inside...

"The Fire Inside..."

I awoke this morning with that phrase on my lips. What does it mean? You might think just "random access memory,"  a simple phrase, bubbling up from my consciousness, signifying nothing, but if, like me, you live in a world of signs & wonders, you take those words as an insight, or maybe an encouragement, from the deep. Reminds me of that Grateful Dead song, "Fire on the Mountain," which always makes me think: get busy, time is burning.

So, yeah, yesterday, we stayed home. Never left the apartment, listened to music, I restrung my guitar, did a bit of computer troubleshooting, had a Mexican fiesta-style meal, & lots of good conversation & laughs with my partner in crime. 

We watched the latest "Frankenstein," (2025). My partner liked it, I thought it was drowning in CGI, and that the lead actor Oscar Issac was laughably miscast. I was laughing quite in bit in parts that I don't think were meant to be funny. But still, it was quite entertaining. Then I finished my day wading deep into Patti Smith's new memoir, "Bread of Angels,"  (2025). Patti is the ultimate poet. It is quite good. Totally captivating. Reminds me that the best writing is about what you put in, and what you leave out, and the best is when an author conjures up a singular vision.  Patti is not a historian, she is first and foremost an artist and poet. Very imagistic, super-inspiring read. Good food for the head.

So, yes, a day of renewal, recharging, refreshing. Feeding that fire inside, keeping the flame turned up high. Seeking the extraordinary, even in the ordinary.

Sunday, November 16, 2025

Radicalized by Decency...

We saw a bumper sticker yesterday, we were on our bikes riding down the avenue. Sometimes a bumper sticker can really speak to you. This one clicked for both my partner & I: RADICALIZED BY DECENCY. Definitely. Yep. No doubt. That is where we are both at.

Of course, decency is a bit of a nebulous concept:

a: the quality or state of being decent : propriety
b: conformity to standards of taste, propriety, or quality

I suppose we know decency, when we see it, hear it, and feel it. And the opposite? We are now being swamped by indecency at every turn. What a total clusterfuck & shit-show. We are over-run by loud assholes, cretinous-Nazis, violent freaks, over-bearing-Idiots, flooded with creeps and degenerates, expounding on idiocies in every realm of our lives.

It is easy to feel overwhelmed. So yeah, radicalized into decency, silence, contemplation, simple kindness, cool-headed-ness, a cultivated, joyous demeanor, and a sunny hopeful attitude. We have been fucking radicalized into decency by the fucking deplorables, and they are legion...

Saturday, November 15, 2025

A Delicious Karmic Consequence...



Ha. Who knew?! It really is all about the Epstein Files. It has always been about the Epstein Files. Whatever is in there must be extremely, totally, definitively, toxic to our totally toxic President. And they just won't go away. Sure, lots of juicy emails, but what we all really want to see are photos & videos. Release the Epstein Files! The more the President fails & flails, and as someone said, "He is drowning on every level now..." the more those files grow in power, & loom over him like a black, toxic, cloud. Super-funny. Hard to believe that it is true. For years Trump played footsie with the files, pretending he'd release them, and then, expose all the compromised folks who rubbed shoulders with Jeffery Epstein. That was at the heart and soul of all that ridiculous Q-Anon craziness. But of course, there is one person who looms larger in those files than anyone else, and it's Trump. He is not hero of the saga, but instead the cold, dark, black-hole of sin. And what of Epstein, close friend of Trump, co-conspirator, rival, albatross around Trump's neck? An interesting journey. Ha. Ha. Ha. Trump really, really, wants this scandal to disappear. The more he wishes it to go away, & tries to deflect, distract; the bigger it gets. Now, even MAGA is starting to crack up over it. Yes. MTG vs Trump: Earthquake in MAGALAND! You couldn't come up with a better fucking, totally delicious, Karmic Consequence. Jeffery Epstein, if he is watching from his prominent place in the flames of hell, must be laughing his ass off.

Friday, November 14, 2025

The Horror & the Horrible Ones are Only Going to Get Worse...

This morning I realize, and it's a scary thought, and I am not scared easily, the horror and horrible ones are only going to get worse. Yikes. That seems true. The Nazis are going to double-down on being Nazis. The rich elite are going to be more demanding & dominant. They want to rule over everyone & everything.  You think being exposed by the Jeffery Epstein Scandal will make them change their tunes? Nope. Think: Elite Impunity. They will double & triple down on their skullduggery. Being a billionaire or a trillionaire is there ticket to a cultivated terribleness. They want to be terrible, to be beyond any rules or morals. That's what they think their money & privilege means. They look at the rest of us as obstacles, as chum, as chumps, as servants. We common ones are the folks who are pushed around, abused and taken advantage of, without consequences. Holy Shite. We are in a bad place in our culture/society/politics at the moment. There are corporations, political parties, Judges, Senators, Reps all in on rallying around & protecting the Elite Scumbags. Surprising, but true. Sure. There are many more of us than them, but they hold all the levers of power and they have no decency. As Jeffery Epstein said about Donald Trump: "Not one decent cell in his body."  There are folks still clinging to that guy. Why? They want to be, or are, just like him...

Thursday, November 13, 2025

A Totally Faux-Solid-Gold-Creep, Release the Epstein Files...


The redacted email above from February 2017. Jeffery Epstein emailing with Larry Summers talking about Trump.  "... not one decent cell in his body... so yes - dangerous..."  Yikes!

Well. It is funny. That dead guy, who either willingly committed suicide, or was helped in the process, just keeps coming back to haunt his old buddy. It must be maddening for our Wanna Be Authoritarian Prez. Jeffery Epstein must haunt his every waking moment, which admittedly is shrinking, lately, lots of sleeping in the middle of the day for the Prez. Every time his administration thinks they have put this story to bed it rises again. Major email dump yesterday. Lots of juicy bits. You'd have be a total idiot not to know that Mr. Wanna Be is deeply embedded in the Jeffery Epstein scandal. They were best buddies for a good chunk of time. This is one of those classic self-sabotage things. Remember how the Crazy Hard Right conjured up a vast, ugly conspiracy, a black-mail ring, hatched by Epstein, implicating rich folks around the world? And MAGA King, strangely fanned the flames?! Well, it turns out, surprise, surprise, it was true, and one those rich folks was their MAGA Beloved. Where does this go? Who knows. You'd think maybe the best thing would be to just release all the Epstein Files and lets the chips fall where they may. What is MAGA King so worried about? We know he is a creep, a totally faux-solid-gold-creep. Does it get worse? Inquiring Minds want to know!

Wednesday, November 12, 2025

Lies Vs. Truth...

I find myself to be a "spiritual" person, living in the material world. You know, keeping my head, gravitating to energy, spirit, creativity & navigating the real, gritty, streets every day. The last few days this has meant skating the days away on the fresh snow & ice. The real world around here is cold, hard, brittle, unforgiving; it's a bit tricky and dangerous too. Just getting around is a bit of a chore. Every step is an adventure. The goal is to stay healthy, not to fall, not to break a bone. Simple survival is front & center right now in the neo-cortex. Keeps one alert to every little thing. Making it thru in one piece is victory.

The broader picture? Lies. A blizzard of Lies. Folks (especially in the current government & in big business too), are spending lots of their time & energy Lying to us. They Lie about everything. Even the obvious, simple things, things we can easily disprove with one brain cell, one glance. It's bit mind-numbing. Totally disturbing.

Turns out the rich & powerful think their Lying to us, is essential to them. lt's their go-to tool to keep and grow their wealth & power. What a fucking, convoluted, soulless system we have created for ourselves. Rewarding the Liars. Encouraged, cajoled, brutalized to swallow the obvious Lies. We all are trained to join in; lying to ourselves, and to each other too, come on it's fun. It's way of Life, a Culture, an Industry.

Reminds me of that great John Lennon song: Gimmee Some Truth. (1971). There is the Way of Truth. Living with Truth. Seeking it out, embracing it, sending it forth into the world. Truth can be a hard, unforgiving teacher. But it's real. It is where intelligence, beauty, wisdom, poetry, & the Good Life are to be found & cultivated.

Living the Way of the Lie is total madness, a sickness, pathology, counter to Nature, a nihilistic dead-end. Seems our culture, maybe the entire species (?),  has driven itself into a mad frenzy of Lying? Are we heading to a species-wide cliff? Lying to ourselves with every forward step? Sounds apocalyptic, but rings true, just read the daily, unrelenting, onslaught of news.

Over here. One breath, one real step, at a time. Totally grounded in reality. It's not easy, but it's real, true. Very, very human. Sure, mortal, vulnerable, can fall & fail at any time. That's just the way it is... "Just Gimmee Some Truth..."

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

Reading the Vibes: The Vibes are Bad...

Sheesh. If you are into reading vibes, like I am, well, lately the vibes in America are reading a bit like Cormac McCarthy's "Blood Meridian."  (1985). Yes. I powered through that difficult & extraordinary book to the end. It was not an easy read. What did I think of it? 

David Foster Wallace named it one of the five most underappreciated American novels since 1960 and "probably the most horrifying book of this century (20th), at least fiction."

I agree with David. Reading McCarthy's novel was sort an intellectual blood-letting. A reset. Gorgeous lines of descriptive, almost biblical-like prose, an unrelenting torrent of human-horror, unfolding in a hard, austere, mysterious, and  starkly wondrous landscape. Weird. 

Shit is going down in America at the moment and that is also not an easy read. A friend of mine who used to live in Turkey, said to me yesterday: "I used to think living in Turkey was bad, now here in the U.S. I think it's worse than Turkey." Yikes.

8 Democratic Senators Caved on the Shutdown and in my little Blue Bubble neighborhood, the natives are not fucking happy about it. Incandescent Rage? Yes. That's a real vibe. So surprising & so soon after a very good election result last Tuesday. A bit disheartening, no doubt.

Yikes. America used to be the place folks from all over the world wanted live. Maybe not so much anymore. We are under assault from our own very criminal government. The folks in charge seem totally detached from reality, they are swimming in their own squalid corruption and narcissism. It is so ugly. 

How to maintain? How not to be diminished or deranged by the daily assaults and outrages? 

Maybe think of it all as a reset; throwing us back on fundamentals. What is important? How to live with truth and reality? How to thrive in the midst of the shite? Maybe there are no good answers? We are stuck living with knotty questions with no clear answers. Still, we must move forward, one step at a time. That's it. All we got.

Monday, November 10, 2025

Disciplined Silence...

Sometimes silence is the best response to the latest shite. A disciplined silence. Bite your tongue, swallow your words, save your energy, stifle your zeal, your anger, your righteous opinion. Wait for another time, another place, another day.

Sunday, November 09, 2025

How Best to Recharge, Regenerate, Renew?

"And now for something completely different..."

One the best ways to recharge, regenerate & renew? Spend an evening with a roomful of poets. My partner and I took that advice last night. We spent a few hours rubbing shoulders and chatting with creative, intelligent, soulful folks. A dazzling array of humanity alive in the room. It was a birthday celebration for one of the poets, in a friendly, well-lit storefront, with vinyl records playing on the box, located on a lively Chicago street, a private party, a pop-up food vendor, an amazing menu of items to eat and drink. And the poetry flowed. Funny poems, touching poems, inspiring poems, insightful poems. There was music too. A Dylan song, "She Belongs to Me" ,  was a certain highlight, it was a rousing, foot-stomping bluesy version of that great song. The whole evening was validating, inspiring, fun, essential, & healing. Yes. Hanging with poets. Highly Recommended.

Saturday, November 08, 2025

Seeing What's Right in Front of our Noses: It's a Disaster...

 

Seems we have entered the FUBAR, (Fucked/Fouled Up Beyond All/Any Repair/Recognition/Reason), phase our current, lawless, clueless, flailing & failing, wanna-be authoritarian, dictator era in America. It is ugly.

There was the Great Gatsby-themed party at the dictator-chic, Mar A Lago, with a woman in a champagne glass. Maybe slightly "tone-deaf," to current political & economic realities?!

Then Trump administration has decided they need to take food from children and needy folks across the USA. Courts have ruled against them but they are taking this case to the Supreme Court, arguing that to take food from the mouths of children and the working poor is necessary. Really, not fucking kidding...





Seems that all this Fascism, and pretend tough-guy act is really hard work & oh so exhausting. Makes our wanna-be authoritarian very sleepy and tired.


It is all pretty much a disaster on every level right now for this administration. And all of us here in USA are paying the price. Shite. Who could have seen this coming?! 


Ha. And oh, yeah, don't forget about the Epstein Files.  Rumors are they contain info really, really bad for the well-being of one particular individual...


Friday, November 07, 2025

Ha, Ha, Ha, Sandwich Guy Walks!

 

Oh it's a beautiful thing. Oh happy day. Sandwich Guy, yes, Sandwich Guy, the unlikely Hero (the person not the sandwich), of the Resistance, walks!

Sandwich Guy took on Agents of Customs and Border Control, and well, he won. Trump's Justice Department, comically flailing and failing, whiffed on this one. The Justice Department at the moment is a super-corrupt, vindictive, vengeful, incompetent, and fucking ridiculous group of scoundrels. They tried  to make an example of Sandwich Guy, and they belly-flopped big-time.

They originally charged Sandwich Guy with Felony Assault, and a Jury refused to indict, a case of "no-billing." They then charged Sandwich Guy with Misdemeanor Assault, and ha, ha, ha, the Jury found him NOT GUILTY! 

Sandwich Guy admitted in court that he threw a wrapped salami sandwich at Federal Officer, but it was a "harmless gesture," an "exclamation point," not forcible assault. The jury agreed. Another sign that folks are not swallowing Trump's Authoritarian B. S. Seems the narrative is shifting. The Common Folk are showing a bit of common sense, and it's deadly, like newly-minted kryptonite, to this corrupt, Fascist regime. A beautiful thing, indeed.

Thursday, November 06, 2025

A Brief Flash of Joy & Happiness

My neighborhood was alive & rocking with joy yesterday. Everyone I know was talking about the Democrat's big election night successes. Democrats won everything, everywhere (see previous post). Surprising. Gratifying. Pretty definitive. And made us all very happy. Maybe our belief in the American Dream isn't dead yet?! You have to embrace the happiness & joy, even if you don't know what's coming around the next corner. You know, I throw my lot in with gravity, common-sense, good cheer, empathy, compassion, democracy, and the common good. I am often disappointed, that's just part of it. The Human Thing is complicated and tricky. My species often excells at self-sabotage, & deep, in the bone stupidity. But, then, once in awhile a positive, life-affirming thing happens, and for a brief time, all seems to be clicking & working. Yes. Embrace the joy & happiness, enjoy it, then fortify yourself for the inevitable battles ahead.

Wednesday, November 05, 2025

Wow. Democrats WON Everything & Everywhere Last Night...

Yes. So we weren't hallucinating. We knew deep in our hearts, and we have been confirmed in our belief, that the Fascist turn in America is not sitting well with much of the country. Big time push-back last night. The roll-call of wins everywhere, at every level is fucking impressive...




Hope dies last. Hope is renewed. And, of course, maybe the most exciting race in the country, was for New York Mayor. Zohran Mamdani won convincingly. Zohran Mamdani:  "New York will remain a city of immigrants, a city built by immigrants, powered by immigrants, and as of tonight, led by an immigrant."  What a beautiful validation of the American Dream.

I suggest you take the time to watch Mamdani's full victory speech. It is a good one. It will make you smile. And make you want to roll up your sleeves and get to work to take back our country from Trump, his ugly acolytes, & his corrupt billionaire buddies. Oh yeah, don't forget RELEASE the EPSTEIN FILES!



Tuesday, November 04, 2025

A Day in the Life...

Yes. Let me just say, "Doomerism is stupid." Maybe, "Blind Optimism is stupid too." The gold standard? Clarity. A Disciplined Clear-Seeing. 

Yesterday, was just another Day in the Life. I was surprised to find that the folks in my neighborhood are all clued in. We are all woke folks who are fully, completely, emphatically, epically WOKE. Yes. We are Aware, Alive, Awake. We are now all wearing whistles around our necks, ready to be blown if ICE is anywhere in the vicinity. We are rallying, and meeting, and contributing to Food Drives for folks who are hungry, since Trump  and GOP are playing games with SNAP. 

Helicopters were again flying over head. Not a good sign. Still, there is no doomerism on the streets. Instead, a fiery consciousness of resistance. Pretty impressive. All the conversations on the paths & streets were about actions folks are taking in response to the bullshit. One of my friends pulled up in his car wearing a bowler hat with the sign "ICE OUT." He also was wearing mirror-shades and a bright, red clown nose. He was driving around looking for ICE, ready to match them clown for clown.

Funny. This friend is not someone I ever thought of as super-political. But folks are rising to the occasion, and the occasion is Fascism in America. We are against it. Hearts, Heads, Souls. Turns out the common folk do seem to care. At least around here. It is a very good development in the face of the horror. No fear, no doomerism, a positive, can-do Spirit. Surprising. Real.